Can You Feel the Love?
I can! Thanks to all of you for being so supportive and wonderful during the craziness that was grad school applications. It's finally over, and I'm going to Wisconsin. Which is a good school. And I've heard great things about Madison. And now I have an excuse to buy a cute wool peacoat and knit more scarves.
I'm absolutely exhausted today. I surprised even myself with how upset I got about the UT decision. With a slightly clearer head, I can see that it wasn't really about not getting into UT---or at least, not entirely about that. It was the ego blow of getting rejected by two schools at a time when I'm already feeling lousy about myself. And it was the frustration of finally feeling that I'm settled in Austin and then having to leave, a feeling I've had too many times before. I'll hate, hate, hate a place (Paris) or a situation (teaching), and I'll decide to leave---only to hit my groove right before it's time to go and wish I had hung on for just a little longer. And it was the stress and fear of having to start all over. Again. And it was the release of nine months of nervous energy.
So I spent yesterday eating way too many cookies while laying in bed and watching DVDs. I thought about taking today off, but decided I'd better get my butt into work. As it is, I'm 8 hours behind this week. And I may leave early today and tomorrow. Fortunately, I came up with a good "sick" story---cluster migraines---that sets me up for an easy out if I need to go home and lets me take it easy while I am at work. And it's not entirely untrue. I have been having some nasty headaches for the past five days, mostly from tension.
Anyway, grad school is decided. I'm going to Wisconsin. Go Badgers!
Now, onto my next decision: Do I stay in Austin until the end of the summer or go to live with my parents when my lease is up in June? I'm working on a pro/con list. I'll post it later today.